Last week I never managed to do a motivational Monday post as I had been to the clinic the previous Friday and was told that I wasn't responding to the drugs that I was on so well this time. No amount of motivational quotes were going to make me feel remotely positive, so I gave it a miss.
Today at 11am I will be going in for an embryo transfer, I will be getting 2 three day embryos (providing they are still doing ok) transferred back into my uterus and I am about to endure the longest two weeks of my life until I find out whether or not the IVF has been successful. All through this cycle I've been focussing on the fact that I wasn't responding too well to the drugs, I didn't produce enough eggs and finally only had 2 eggs that fertilised, which for me is crap! I felt that this was a wasted cycle and if I had been given the option to have cancelled it then I would have.
Mr M told me to stop being negative and thinking it will fail before it's even started. He told me that some people don't respond to their drugs at all, some people don't have any eggs that they can use and some people don't even get any fertilisation. He said that we are lucky to have come this far and that all it takes is one embryo to become pregnant not 10 or 20! This was something that my acupuncturist also told me. Also what makes me think that it wouldn't work? Well I couldn't answer that, other than "cos it wont!" (Said in a spoiled child voice)
So many of us focus on what can go wrong when doing something instead of focussing on what can go right, I think we do it for self-preservation as if it does go belly up then it won't hurt as much or so we can say "I knew it wouldn't work!" But what if things do work? Let's face it loads of people try new things every day and not everyone fails at whatever they do, so why can't it be you that it goes right for? What makes you different from everyone else that things go right for? Nothing!! So next time you are doing an exam, having a job interview, or asking that hot guy out then focus on what could go right instead of thinking what if I fail, what if I don't get the job or what if he says no! You just might pass that exam, get that job and that hot guy :)!
So from now I will
I really need to take my own advice more often :)